..and even if I need you here,

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 15:52:31 GMT

new lj name.. shannymb :o).. add me as a friend!

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 17:53:47 GMT

got home today at like 11.15 or something.

just thought id say..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST FRIEND EMIIIILY!!!! :o) I LOVE YOU!!..

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 16:38:25 GMT

goin campin for the weekend all along, check ya later :o/

i got the cell on me, call it 944-3222

i want some hugs too!! :o) i sure do need em' :o(

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 02:09:27 GMT

*HUGS* TOTAL!
give shannonmb more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 15:54:53 GMT

Today's June 16th.. Happy Birthday Justin.. just think buddy, now up there in heaven you can get into those R rated movies! I really wish i could just see you one more time, just one more hello, one more good-bye. I can't get over the fact you are not coming back. I can't get my self to believe it. I think that you're just going to come back one day and everything is going to be fine. I wish so much that that would just come true. People here need you Justin, its hard going on with their life when a person in their life WAS their life. Everyone said god got jealous and had to take you, why?.. Why did he have to make everybody's life horrible? Like in recipes for cooking, you take out just ONE ingredient and you food tastes disgusting and you just want to throw it away. Its just like life, the ingredients to have a good life are all your friends, all the people you love, and when ones missing or gone your life isn't good, you just want to give up. but unlike cooking, you can go get a similar ingredient and replace it in your food.. but not in life, you can NEVER get another person to take their spot to make everything fine again. The only thing we can do here is just wait, wait till god sees something in us like he seen in you Justin, so we can come join you and you can give us a tour of your new home and we can be happy because we got that one more hello and we'll never ever have to say that one last good bye.

Everyone misses you Justin.. Happy Birthday.

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 15:44:37 GMT

YES!! pistons kicked major ass last night!!.. and man there gonna do it again tuesday at 8.30 and win EVERYTHING!!.. lakers are goin D-O-W-N!!..

check out the lj, i re-did it

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 03:47:48 GMT

today was jessicas graduation party, people are still here and man im tired!!.. everyones leaving tomorrow so ill get to hang out out with the friends again :o)

>>>Current.. .<<<
Current Dress: light blue pj pants from target and old softball shirt
Current Makeup: warn off makeup from the long day
Current Mood: eh just tied, sad cuz i havent talked to friends in forever :o(
Current Music: none, just kids yellin loud
Current Taste: ranch from my salad
Current Hair: in a low poney tail, stright
Current Annoyance: people that are here
Current Smell: people
Current CD in Stereo: none
Current Color Of Toenails: silver
Current Worry: eh a few things
Current Crush: :o/.. gotta find one

>>>LOVE.. . <<<
boyfriend/girlfriend: nope
longest relationship: tooo long ago
shortest relationship: like a day maybe
been in love w/ more than one person? nope
sweetest thing a guy/girl has done for you?no ones ever done anything sweet for me :o(
ever broke someone's heart? dont think so
someone break your heart? nah

>>LAST PERSON.. .<<<
You Talked to: my anutie pam
You Hugged: bunch of people sayin goodbye
You Kissed: cant member
You Cried to: myself
You Danced With: no one
You went to a concert with: em and susie to the downtown hoedown!!
You went out with (boyfriend, girlfriend): umm too long ago, i think jordan
You Fought With (Physically): my dad
Who Broke Your Heart: no one
You Sang Too: no one
Who Sang To You: no one
Who You Missed: my friends
Who You Complimented: not sure
Who You Wanted to Have sex with: um there was him and him then oh him

>>>FAVORITE.. . <<<
Food: i really liked the salad today, i had like 4 bowls
Drink: water or OJ
Color: pink
Album: when the sun goes down, kenny chesny... cd album same thing right?
Shoes: just my old navy flip flops
Candy: starburts
Movie: oh raising helen was really good
Fruit: strawberries

>>>ARE YOU.. .<<<
Understanding: i try to be
Open-minded: sometimes
Arrogant: no
Insecure: sometimes
Interesting: nah not really
Hungry: nah, so full
Friendly: i try
Smart: i try
Moody: kinda
Childish: everyones childish
Independent: i think iam
Hard working: when i want to be
Healthy: i think so
Emotionally Stable: ya
Difficult: sure
Attractive: no
Bored Easily: oh yea thats why im doin this
Messy: oh yea
Thirsty: no
Responsible: yes
Obsessed: not really, but ashton kutcher, man!
Angry: no
Sad: no
Happy: most of the time
Trusting: yea
Original: kinda
Different: i try not to be
Deep thinker: not really
Self-disciplined: no lol
Sleepy: yes
Lonely: sometimes

>>>WHO DO YOU WANT TO.. .<<<
Kill: no one
Get Really Drunk With: who ever ..lol
Look Like: looking like anyone else wud be better than lookin the way i do.
Be Like: i like being myself
Talk To: just a friend

>>>Memories and Feelings.. .<<<
Favorite memory of the summer: dont really got to many, hopeing i get alot!
Favorite memory of this year: being close to more people like susie and roach
Favorite memory of today: umm seein all the people i barly see
Favorite memory from when you were little: not having to worry about guys or girl problems
Favorite memory that you had with a boyfriend/girlfriend: i have no memories with boyfriends.. :o(
Favorite memory of highschool: theres too many
Saddest memory of this year: loseing an awesome friend, justin mazmanian
Saddest memory relationship wise: not sure
Saddest memory of being little: hum prolly when i had to put my dogs to sleep

Most regretful feeling: theres a few things i regret but i guess things happen for a reason and you cant change what you have done so i try and look at the postives
The feeling you are feeling now: kinda sad and tired
The feeling that you want: the feelin of being loved by someone, as in a guys :o/

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 18:56:11 GMT

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im not the greatest

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 14:02:35 GMT

hey everyone!! friday was my brithday :).. lol oh yes im 15 now! well just think in a year ill be 16 and will be able to drive!!.. lol school wasnt the best day friday.. someone wrote something bad on my pretty sign em put on my locker :*(.. and some little things were makin me mad.. and then out slide show didnt work in math class.. but i got ballons in 5th hour from my sister.. lol.. then after school i came home and sat on the computer for a bit and tried to clean my room but i didnt feel like it.. then at like 4.30 my aunt and cousin came here from georgia. and at like 5 we decided to go out to eat.. we went to logans!.. eh i use to love that place until friday when i got like hair in my food and they were messin up EVERYTHING!.. and then someone had to open their mouth about my birthday and this guy told me and my cousin (cuz her b-days next friday) to come with him and we had to stand on chairs and he was yelling for everyone to look and stuff, wasnt the best thing ever but pretty funny.. lol then we went to krogers and got a cake and my aunt went and got me an iced capp. and then we went to my other aunts house to sing happy birthday to me and my cousin mel cuz her b-day was saturday.. lol but b4 we did that me and meg went and picked my other cousin becca up from work!.. lol it was fun.. then we got back to my aunts and we sang happy brithday and i got to open some present!.. and u cud NEVER guess what i got!.. KENNY CHESNEY TICKETS!! :) oh god i cant wait!!.. emes comin with me and my moms takin us.. august 21st man!! lol then we got back to my house around 11 or 12 i dont even know.. and we looked at pics for awhile and then we went to bed.. THEN saturday i woke up around 7.30 and jumped in the shower cuz it was time for the seniors to graduate.. :o/ its pretty lonely at school with out them.. and now my moms gonna have to dive me to school everyday.. :o/.. then we came to my house for a bit, then went to roses to eat.. and then at like 3.30 went out to oakland u. and watched my cousin from romo graduate.. it was really hot cuz we were right in the sun, i wanted to die.. lol and then we went to chilis to eat which was at like 8 and didnt get outta there till like 10 and got home around 10.30 and i was soo tired i went in my room and watched mad tv and i just passed out.. but anything im gonna go, got lots of homework today.. exams all next week and then thursday, schools out!!.. ugh i cant wait!!.. but adios everyone!

Sun, 30 May 2004 02:51:30 GMT

wow, havent updateing in like a week, crazy.. i havent done alot.. softball ended the other day.. wednesday was our last game.. and i went to the pistons game too with susie her brother his 2 friends her other brother and his girlfriend and her dad.. it was so much fun, we're suprised we didnt lose our voice!.. lol then thursday after school i had to go turn im my uniform and we got some pizza in warehalls room at kennedy, he was p.o-ed about something which was kinda gay but o well, im gonna miss softball.. hum so anyways friday after school me and susie were posta come back to my house and work on our math slide show but she had to go had out flyers for cheerleadin so i went to her house and we passed out flyers and were done by like 5.30 then we came to my house to get my things to spend the night and then susies mom droped us off at kyte to watch brett and jimmy play their game. im not sure if they won i forgot.. me and susie played baseball with bretts litter brother troy for like an hour and a half, man that kids awesome, i'd love to have him as a brother..hes so cute!.. lol hum then the 1st game got over and like all the guys were eating pizza and someones mom said we cud have a piece so i took one :) and then em,jen and lee told us brett got hurt so we went to see him cuz when he was pitchin he got drilled in the shins with the ball..i felt bad for him :(.. then we left and walked to jens to watch the pistons game that started at like 8 and by half time the were losein bad so me and susie cudnt watch them anymore so we went outside and jumped on the trampoline for a lil and just hung around, it was fun i love jenny rabb!.. hum thats about it.. we went to 7-11 and got a slurpee and i think thats bout it.. me and susie got back to her house at like 11 and we watched uptown girls and i almost feel asleep but i didnt, then we just sat around and watch 2 other movies, talked, looked at pictures, and read each other quizes.. and we tried this fake tanner stuff and it made an orange strike on my leg, opps.. lol but by then it was like 3 and i was like passin out on the floor so we feel asleep to sweet home alabama and b4 ya know it, it was 11 and susies mom was wakin us up cuz kyle got us sausage mcmuffins.. yum! and this capacino thing which was really good.. then my mom came and got me at like 12 i think and i came home and got rady and then susie came back over at like 2.30 and we started our power point thing at 3 and didnt get done till 10!!.. but we didnt finish we got like 6 more to go, but were gonna wait for Roach.. so she left at 10 and ive been sittin here sence, thats goin on 8 stright hours on the computer.. thats so sad.. lol but im gonna go maybe get some food, adios everyone :)

Sun, 23 May 2004 03:23:20 GMT

hey dudes, whats up?.. not much here.. my weekends been pretty good so far.. well i didnt get home from school friday till like 3.30-3.40ish because we had to stay for that stupid tornado thing.. then i came home and sat on the computer for a little bit and at like 5 went and worked on some of my scrap-book till like 6 then ate some chicken and rice for dinner and went back working on my scrap book till like 8.00.. and i was posta hang out with susie at 7 when she got back from tryouts but it went late (its k suser i still ly) lol ..so i went to emes house and we sat on the puter and watched enough and talked with matty.. haha that kids funny.. then went on the computer again for a lil then at like 2.00 maybe we decided we were tired so we went up to her room and listened to CMT and went to bed. I woke up at like 9.30 i think and just like layed there for a little, then we just sat around and i made my livejoural icon and at like 12.30-1 my mom came and got me and i came home and took a shower. my mom ran to walmart cuz my  brother needed to get a birthday present for his friend. then we went to macomb mall and we were there till like 4 maybe, and i only got this purse/bag thing from old navy :o(.. i was trying to find a skirt but nothing wud fit me!.. it made me mad.. i wanted some white pants too and they only had like size 13!.. then i came home and decided to go hang out with suser so i changed my clothes cuz i had shorts on and i felt like a skank and waited for my mom to get ready and she droped me off over there at like 5.30 i think. we watched like 10 mins of road trip or something with mary-kate and ashley and then at like 6 mrs.hough took us to jennifer maries house! when we got there em, lee, kyle and shannon were there.. then like jenny f. and jimmy and jordan and roach and frosty and b.z and tara and all theses other people came over there and we watched the pistons game ( they lost :o( ) and jumped on the trampoline and played bball and stuff, it was fun. my mom came and got me from there at like 10 and iver been sittin around sence. i had lots of fun at jens, i love her!!  but im gonna get goin now, i think i might go work on my scarp book or watch tv and hit it, i dunno.. but ill talk to everyone later love ya *muah*

Wed, 19 May 2004 23:06:29 GMT

lordy lordy, we're loseing so much were almost winning.. softballs just goin on quite slowly cuz we havent won a game in forever, even tho we just own yesterday that was like the 1st one in like a month.. cazy.. but o well theres really nothing you can do when your coach doesnt know how to do his job..anyways off that topic.. ugh todays wednesday and no oc!.. its gonna take alot gettin use to with a wednesday without the oc *tear*.. lol.. well i dont really remember how my days been goin..ive never had so many comfy days in my life.. i dont even care anymore, i like wake up and go to school in the morning.. dont give a rats behind what i look like, no one to impress.. humm what else.. todays the 19th =*(.. 2 months ugh i started feeling tears come on in 3rd hour when leblanc was teachin, cuz im back in the courner where me frankie and justin sat, but i didnt let any out.. but thats about it, im gonna go eat away my anger/sadness with my pierogies.. later

i was a part of the 22nd annual downtown hoedown!!

Sun, 16 May 2004 04:31:30 GMT

whoa whoa.. a pretty fun saturday i'd say.. lol.. i woke up at like 9.30 maybe and sat around, had a huge headache! i had one till like 1.30.. then at 2 suser came and got me and we went to bk and her n her sister got some food and we went back to her house and ate it.. then we went up to kyte and watched the vasrity baseball team and when we left they were winnin like 4-1 and it was freezing as crap.. and we got home at like 3-3.30 and then em came over and my aunt got here and we left at like 4 to head down to heart plaza.. lol man there were alot of laughs.. lol we first got there and there wernt too many people there.. and walked about and looked at all the stands and stuff and then we went and watched rushlow for a bit and got some free swoops!.. lol.. and then we wanted to find some food and were walkin around, and em decided she wanted one of the beer mugs that everyone had and there was one in the trash so she just graped it like no one was watching.. lol.. then we went to look at hoedown shirts cuz me and suser wanted one and we saw this one that just stuck out cuz it was purple tie die and we had to get it cuz justin use to always wear his purple tie die shirt.. but its not really tie die tho its just like weird.. but its close enough.. then we went and got some arbys..yum yum.. then my mom and my aunt went to the bathroom and left us alone to eat when this only homeless colored man comes up to us and asked us for chain like 10 times and if he cud have a bit of our roast beef sandwitches!.. man o man.. then 2 mins later 2 ladies walk up to us and ask if we want this engery drink.. oh and what do you know 2 more mins later some really scary dude come plops his butt right next to ems and asks us if we have a lighter like 2 times and whats goin on tonight.. oh lord downtown is scccary!.. so then we hurry up and chocked down our food and like ran to the bathrroms to wait for my mom and when they got out they went and got food and we got some pop and we walked over and waited for andy griggs to come on at 7 and he played till like 8 and then he was signin autographs so we ran over where he was signin them and they made a lil path for him and the secuirty dude was like "hot coffee. hot coffee".. it was funny.. we were like the 6th person in line and he only had 30 mins to sign so it was cool.. and he smiled at me.. awee!!.. lol.. then we went back to our spots andEmerson drive came on at 8.30, wow they were amazing!!.. i love them, theyre like me new fav!.. they make everything soo fun!.. lol.. then we sat there waiting for leann rimes to come on at 10 while all these drunks were all around us and this one lady was trying to get to the front and she was like white trash, lil princess kinda bia and like everyons feet were touchin and she was like excuuuuse me.. and im liek i cant move and shes liek eexcccccue me and im like theres no room, and she said it again reallly loud so i like pushed my way into other people, which just made me mad and my mom statred yelling at her lol it was funny, but then she didnt get her way so she walked away.. but we only listened to like 3 or 4 or leanns songs and then we started heading out.. lol but me susie and emily all had our ls hoodies on which had our names on our backs so like all the drunks were yelling our names.. it was crazy.. and when we were walking out some weird blonde bia asked us to her our cell phone cuz she lost hers and her kind.. were like ugh no sry.. and some other dude was like aw how old are u ladies and my moms like too young for you.. lol wow it a crazy night.. there were soo many hicks, i cudnt believe it.. then we walked back to our car and kinda got lost and went the wrong way and almost made it to candad!..lol but anyways thats about my day.. pretty good day i'd say.. take away all the scary old drunk and homeless people.. lol but im out gotta get up early tomorrow and go collect trash with em for e.c points for bio.. what fun..lol good night

Sat, 15 May 2004 03:07:38 GMT

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Sat, 15 May 2004 00:17:48 GMT

hey, havent updated in awhile cuz my explorer was down, lol but susies on her way over so ill do all the details later, havent done much lately just playing softball.. and not winning too many games..but had heck of a bus ride home!.. never watched the sky so much in my life!!.. lol it was great!.. but anyways im out, laaaaata!

Sat, 08 May 2004 11:48:59 GMT

pretty awesome night.. hung out with the one and only roach and suser!!.. aw it was funny as heck!.. we can entertain our selfs preeeetty well.. lol but i dont have time to type what we did in here cuz i gotta finish gettin ready to head to lakeshore cuz i gotta be there at 8.15 for the 8.30 bus for our softball turney.. just go read susies journal if you want details of what we did.. lol.. i think the bg and the icon kinda shows it tho..

so i got the games at 10 and not sure when there over with then comein home and takin a shower and gettin ready then goin to ashs dacnce thing!.. cant wait.. its gonna be fun!!.. i hope roach can go!!

k im out..

I LOVE MY FIRENDS :o)

Wed, 05 May 2004 00:30:08 GMT

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and
soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive.Active mind. Hesitating, tends
to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.Temperamental. Funny and
humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily
hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up.Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom
shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.Brand conscious. Executive.
Stubborn.

Sun, 02 May 2004 19:28:03 GMT

okay, heres what i got goin for the next week..

Monday 4/03~ school, hope my mom makes an app. for my braces cuz my chain broke again.. then home game aganist lakeview at 4.30.. i thought warehall told us 4, but it says 4.30 on my paper.. so somewhere around there.. and then come home.

Tuesday 4/04~ (exactly one month from my birthday) school and then i think softball pics but im not sure what time. and then come home and One Tree Hill at 9!!

Wednesday 4/05~ school, away game vs. st.clair at 4.30.. come home watch the last episode of season of THE OC at 9.00 =0. ugh im gonna cry!

Thursday 4/06~ school, away game vs. roseville at 4.30.. come home.. and do nothing.. lol

Friday 4/07~ school, then nothing because we have no practice because of PROM, even tho only one person is goin on our team, lol its still all good.. so no practice so if anyones bored, you know the number!.. lol

Saturday 4/08~ we got an away tournment at 10.00 and then ashleys dance thingy!! and dont know what im doin in between for after or anything cuz im not sure what time the thing starts.

Sunday 4/09~ my day to rest

June 4th- 33 days till my birthday counting weekends June 10th- 29 days tills schools out not counting weekends!

Sat, 01 May 2004 14:49:06 GMT

hey, havent updated in awhile.. but i changed my journal again, it made me sad everytime i looked at my joural so i had to.. hum..this week all our classes were screwed up cuz of the meap.. so all the days felt extreamly long.. and i dont really remeber what i did.. umm monday we had a home game at 4.30 but i forgot if we won or not, lol.. then tuesday i had practice and i dont think i did anything after that, then wednesday we had another home game and i dont remeber if we lost.. lol its so hard to remeber we had 11 games so i get them all confused.. but then i came home and watched the oc, only one more episode left!!.. ah.. then thursday we had ANOTHER game lol and it was at 4 but i remember we lost cuz i got hit in the ankel when the pitcher pitched the ball, whew did that hurt, and it was all swollen.. but i think its okay now just a lil bruised.. lol.. then after i came home and took a shower and went to susers and roach came over then frost came and got us and we went to the talent/fashion show.. lol it was pretty good i guess.. lol then after we walked back to susies and jessica picked me up from there at like 9 and then we droped frankie off and then came home.. so then yesterday was friday and we got outta school at 2.15 cuz we had an away game and we won that one 10-6 and got to play 2nd the whole time, yay go me.. lol.. then humm.. i got to the school at like 7 and my mom picked me up and then i came home and sat on the puter for a bit then watched the tigers game with my dad for a lil but i feel asleep in the bottom of the 9th so i dont remeber if they won or lost.. so my mom woke me up and i went to bed.. but i dont remember what time.. lol but anyways i woke up at like 9.30 today and not sure what im gonna do.. but im gonna go adios!

re-did the lj again

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 19:16:15 GMT

ya, check it out.. i like it.. but ill prolly end up changin it in like a week cuz i always do that.. but anyways.. friday we had a home game vs marine city.. yea we cudda beat them if their pitcher wasnt 90 mph.. we didnt lose horribly and get murced like the other games but the end score was 1-6.. so we held them pretty good.. frosty scored the only run and hit a tripple.. we had a few 3 up, 3 down innings which was cool.. lol but that game was fun and like no one was mad that we lost cuz we played a good game.. lol and then frost just thinks of the most awesome topics to talk about, lmao.. so like 5 people told me they were gonna come to our game but only the one and only hot susie hough showed up.. and after the game me and susie got picked up by her sister and went to 7-11 and then back to her house and hung out for a lil bit and then we went to applebees and ate some food and then got back to my house at like 10 and we just sat on the puter and then watched under the tuscan sun, which i feel asleep, sry sue!!.. lol.. then she left at like 9 on saturday mornin and i got ready and cleaned up a lil and me and keisha went to michaels to get some stuff for our expanol project and then it was like 11.30 by the time we got home and i had practice at 12 for s.c.s softball.. im on a fricken 14 and under team.. ugh.. its stupid.. but anyways my mom came and got me from practice at like 2.30 even tho it ended at 2 cuz my brother had a stupid game so i had to sit there by myself.. and then after i came home and just sat around till like 6 when ashley came over and we hung out for like and hr then we walked to jordans where him, pep, daryl, jimmy, and john were.. we played with cell phone and watched them play with some pimped out remote cars.. lol.. we got home at like 8.30 and ate pizza and salad then we were messen around with people on ash's sn which was pretty funny and she left at 10.. then i made my background to my lj and went to bed at like 1.20.. then today i woke up at 10 and just been sitin around, i made some things for our spanish house but thats it.. hum we got a game mon, wed, thur and fri.. whew!.. lol but im gonna get goin i gotta go fold the clothes.. good bye

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 20:36:42 GMT

What is your name?: Shannon Bucholtz
Are you named after anyone?: i dont think so
What's your screename?: bo0 holtz babe
Would you name a child of yours after you?: no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: i dont know
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: um emily
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: yea w/ my last name
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: nah
Basics
Your gender:: female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: always will be
If not, do you want to be?: id like it if i had someone =/
Birthdate:: 6/489
Your age:: 14
Age you act:: depends
Age you wish you were:: 6, then you dont have to worry about guys and school and ugh
Your height:: 5'1
Eye color:: brown
Happy with it?: yea
Hair color:: brownish blonde
Happy with it?: eh
lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: righty
Your living arrangement:: with family
Your family:: mom, dad, sister, brother
Have any pets?: a dog
What’s your job?: dont got one
Piercings?: ears
Tattoos?: nope
Obsessions?: nah
Addictions?: not really
Do you speak another language?: si,espanol
Have a favorite quote?: nah, not really
Do you have a webpage?: no
Deep Thoughts about Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: i guess, because sometimes i say things that i know will effect my negitivly in the future but i just get all caught up and everything comes out.. i guess i gotta learn how to control that
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: depends who they are but yea i guess
Do you have any secrets?: sure
Do you hate yourself?: not really, for some things
Do you like your handwriting?: no
Do you have any bad habits?: yea
What is the compliment you get from most people?: dont know.. no one compliments me
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "The life of a loser"

What's your biggest fear?: bein left alone
Can you sing?: no
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: not lately
Are you a loner?: i try not to be
What are your #1 priorities in life?: paaaarty.. ugh i dunno
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: i guess id give myself a shot
Are you a daredevil?: fo shizzle
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: my face and body
Are you passive or aggressive?: both
Do you have a journal?: si
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: not sure
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: the size of my huge nose
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yes
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: nah everything happends for a reason
Do you think life has been good so far?: sure
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: i dunno, be urself?
What do you like the most about your body?: nothing
And least?: my stomach
Do you think you are good looking?: im a train wreck
Are you confident?: eh i try
What is the fictional character you are most like?: um.. dunno
Are you perceived wrongly?: i dunno
Do You...
Smoke?: nope
Do drugs?: nope
Read the newspaper?: nah
Pray?: fo sho
Go to church?: nah
Talk to strangers who IM you?: sure
Sleep with stuffed animals?: nah, my blankie tho
Take walks in the rain?: not by my self but if i had someone to walk with sure
Talk to people even though you hate them?: sometimes
Drive?: not by myself yet
Like to drive fast?: not yet
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: no
Hurt yourself?: no
been out of the country?: i dont think so
Eaten something that made other people sick?: no
Been in love?: no!!
Done drugs?: nope
Gone skinny dipping?: nope
had a medical emergency?: nope
Had surgery?: nope
Ran away from home?: nope
Played strip poker?: nope
Gotten beaten up?: nope
Beaten someone up?: nope
Been picked on?: evveryone has

Been on stage?: for a few things
Slept outdoors?: si
Thought about suicide?: I think everyone has, but i never did seriously
Pulled an all nighter?: with eme!
If yes, what is your record?: till 8:00am i think!
Gone one day without food?: nope never
Talked on the phone all night?: nope
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: nah
Slept all day?: not really
Killed someone?: no
Made out with a stranger?: no
had sex with a stranger?: nope
Thought you're going crazy?: yes
Kissed the same sex?: no
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: yea
Had a dream that came true?: all the time, but not the ones i want to come true
Broken the law?: of course
Met a famous person?: george stults kinda
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: dont think so
On purpose?: no
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: dont think so
Stolen anything?: no
Been on radio/tv?: nope
Been in a mosh-pit?: nah
Had a nervous breakdown?: dont think so
Bungee jumped?: nope
Had a dream that kept coming back?: not the same dream but with the same people
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: if there is they gotta be weird
Miracles?: not really
Astrology?: sure
Magic?: no
God?: yea
Satan?: no
Santa?: i used to
Ghosts?: i dont know, kinda not really
Luck?: yes
Love at first sight?: i wish i did
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: sure
Witches?: no
Easter bunny?: i used to
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yea
Believe there’s a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: i always thought there was
Do you wish on stars?: i have b4
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: yea
Do you think God has a gender?: yea a man
Do you believe in organized religion?: sure
Where do you think we go when we die?: to heaven or hell-o
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: dont believe so
Who is your best friend?: em bianchi
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: em prolly
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: dont know
Your favourite inside joke?: not sure
Thing you're picked on most about?: lots of stuff
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: nope
What do you find romantic?: anything with the right person
Turn-on?: just some stuff
Turn-off?: yellow n ugly teeth, smoking
First kiss?: ..then
If someone u had in interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: i dont know
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: nah
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: i think
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: nope
What is best about the opposite sex?: alot of things
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: oh alot more things
What's the last present someone gave you?: not sure
Are you in love?: no
Do you consider your significant other hot?: don’t have one
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: I don’t know
You wanted to kill?: humm..
That you laughed at?: frost at the game, lmao
That laughed at you?: everyone laughs at me
That turned you on?: dont rember
You went shopping with?: meg in georgia
That broke your heart?: no one really
To disappoint you?: umm dont know
To ask you out?: i 4 got his name.. like lucas from like 1st grade.. oh wait he didnt ask me out
To make you cry?: justin maz
To brighten up your day?: sum people
That you thought about?: maz
You saw a movie with?: suser last night
You talked to on the phone?: mom
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: jordan
You saw?: mom
You lost?: umm dont know
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: no
Will it be with your significant other?: don’t have one of those
or some random person?: no
What are you wearing right now?: comfy clothes
Body part you're touching right now: hands
What are you worried about right now?: lots of things
What book are you reading?: none
What's on your mousepad?: red white and blue shit
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: tired, sad, bored, blah, lonely
Are you bored?: yes
Are you tired?: yea
Are you talking to anyone online?: no ones talkin to me
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no
Are you lonely or content?: lonely
Are you listening to music?: no

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 23:53:54 GMT

Today, Monday, was a good day.. it was good to see everyone again but i hate doin work =/ humm 1st hr was boring as crap.. 2nd hr we had a stupid sub and it was just boring, 3rd hr was alright but spanish is always boring.. lol.. then 4th hr was gay cuz its fastrabs class and then lunch was good and 5th hr i like feel alseep cuz ackerly just makes me sleep.. and 6th hr was hot cuz we had to walk the track!.. phew.. lol then i only had to go to 7th hr for like 15 mins cuz we had a softball game today.. so i got out at 2:15 from last hr and went and got dressed and headed to the bus which left at 2:30 or 45 or something.. then we headed to wareen mott and we knew right when we seen them we were gonna win.. it was a fun game tho, good weather and everything.. i got to start at second.. whew go me! warehall complemented my the double play i started!.. and then my girl frost hit en effin homer!!. YES BABY!!.. lol it was tiggggght!!.. lol hum so our game got done early cuz we won 20-0.. haha.. thats like a frickin football score.. and we got back to the school at like 5:35 and we got our sweat pants, shirts, t-shirts and long selve shirts.. they tizight.. sept the fact that the grays are two different color grays =/ lol.. but its coo.. we got pracitce tomorrow at kennedy at 3:45-5:30 and i wanna go to the guys game up at kyte after to cheer on my man jimmy.. lol.. then hum oh yea i get to get outta school at like 9 tomorrow cuz i need to get my rubber band fixed on my braces.. i dont know if i just wanna go in late or what.. ill decided that later.. lol.. but then yea thats bout it.. im out ttyl aaadios!

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 00:33:46 GMT

~Monday~ school, softball game away 4:00 at Warren Mott, homework

~Tuesday~ school, prolly practice, homework

~Wednesday~ school, softball game away 4:30 at Port Huron, homework

~Thursday~ school, practice prolly, homework

~Friday~ school, HOME softball game at kyte aganist Marine City at 4:30, hang out with SUSIE!! :o)

~Saturday~ not sure

~Sunday~ not sure

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 21:06:53 GMT

hey everyone.. well todays friday and that means ill be heading back to michigan tomorrow morning.. i dont wanna leave, but i cant wait to get home.. i miss my bed, i miss my friends, and softball too.. phew.. i just cant wait to be back home :o).. even tho at school on monday everyones gonna be tanner than me :o(.. even the people who didnt go anywhere are gonna be effin tanner than me.. i never get tan!!.. lol well im gonna go.. i dont know what im doing in here when theres still a good 1 to 2 hours of sun i cud be gettin.. lol im just lazy.. but im out see everyone in a few days :o)

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 17:00:32 GMT

A Lesson in Life

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.

If someone hurts you, betrays you , or breaks you heart, forgive them. For they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it.